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DUDE!!!!!!!!! LUNKHEAD LIVE DVD YO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

but screw it, by hook or by crook i am getting myself to Japan this year to see them live, with or without DVD!! IT’S NEVER THE SAME! NEVERRRR!!!!

aaaaaaaaaaaaa~

dat said, i think i’m going crazyyyyy~~~~~

ohhhh lunkhead, you’re lovely. too damn lovely!

SAKURA BIYORI ROCKS! wooooo~~~

aaaaaaaaaaaa~~~~~~

THANKFULLY i can’t understand what he’s singing, i might just fall in love even more and that’s always frigging HOPELESS!

OHHHHHHHHHHHHH I WISH I HAD BEEN IN NIIHAMA FOR THESE SHOWS! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~~~  damn why must i have had a job at that time!! SHITE!

HOW TO MAKE HORCHATA YO!!! AUTHENTIC MEXICAN DRINK! woooo~~~~

Serves: 6 - 7
I N G R E D I E N T S
6 tablespoons rice
6 ounces (about 1 1/4 cups) blanched almonds
1 inch cinnamon stick (canella)
3 "2-inch" strips of lime zest (rind only, not the white pithy part) 3/4" long
1 cup white granulated sugar

I N S T R U C T I O N S 
The traditional way to make horchata is with a metate y mano. For those of us less adventurous, or simple those with less time, we can use a blender.

Pulverize the rice using a your blender.  Grind the mixture as smooth as possible. Combine the rice with the almonds, cinnamon and lime zest. Let this mixture stand overnight (minimally 6 hours).

Place the mixture in the blender jar and blend for at least 3 - 5 minutes until the mixture is smooth and no long has a gritty texture. Add 2 cups of water and blend again for just a few seconds.  Place a large sieve over a mixing bowl.  Line the sieve with 3 layers of damp cheesecloth.  Pour in the rice mixture, a little at a time and keep stirring to help the mixture go through the sieve.  Once all the liquid has passed through to the bowl gather the cloth together at the top, give it a twist and squeeze out any additional liquid.

Now add 2 more cups of water and stir in as much sugar as you’d like, to taste. If the mixture is too thick, add some additional water. 

Cover and refrigerate. The drink should keep several days, refrigerated.
Serve in a tall glass over ice.

Imma gonna TRY TO MAKE TOMORROW!!!! I need cinnamon!!!!!!!!!!!!

hey it’s cold~

taking back sunday helps.

yes, the best is not to think or remember. but to live, and scream, and die together in the mosh pit. i never felt so alive. perhaps. it the crowd and the rhythm you drown. breathlessness and passing out in your pit seems better than the hauntings of my thoughts that i can’t seem to stop.

yes.

taking back sunday should help.

what do i do, when i am without you one day?

it’s sad but true, out of cash and IOUs.

It’s sad but true… i really like Nigel, and i wish i could tell dez or nigel himself. Part of me really wish that Nigel knows already. I mean.. we’ve not been talking these few days, but i guess we kinda did through Dez yesterday? I don’t know.

But truth is that, Nigel, I like you.

and…

and i want you to know that…

because maybe…

i wish you’ll like me too…

FIRST thing to do before going to sleep:
* get d comforter n snuggle in.

FIRST pet:
* doggie!!! Winnie *heart*

FIRST primary school:
* SRK (P) Methodist 1 wahhhh still can remember d full title

FIRST alcoholic drink you had:
* dat shandy thingy my mom used to let us drink during CNY.

FIRST time you entered a bar:
* i think it was quite late, 18 maybe….

FIRST time you were sent to the principal for
disciplinary action:
* i got beaten by the discipline teacher actually… i think it was like std 4 or something.

FIRST record you bought:
* hmmm… one of those old boybands when i was 10.

FIRST musical instrument you learned to play:
* organ……………. i was soooooooooooooooo bad the teacher told my mom to stop me.

FIRST sport you played:
* badminton.

FIRST terrible fight:
* i don’t remember.

FIRST best friend:
* debby.

FIRST wedding you’ve attended:
* my uncle’s i think…….. ahhhhhhhhh MANA INGAT!! u know all those chinese chinese dinner weddings… still wedding rite??? but i know it’s probably some relative’s.

FIRST person who greeted you on your last
birthday:
* hmmmmmmmmmmmm ACTUALLY alot of ppl greeted me this time!!! but i think it was kaiwen *heart*

FIRST collection:
* Oasis singles =) I have ALL the Definitely Maybe and Morning Glory’s singles.

FIRST time you saw a ghost:
* when i was urm………. maybe 5 or six.

FIRST roller coaster ride:
* don’t remember but it was pretty young…. when i was FINALLY taller than that stupid line

FIRST ambition:
* hmmmmmmmmmm TEACHER!!!! REALLY!!!!!!!!!!!! dude, if i went home and be a teacher, i’d actually have fulfilled my "childhood dreams" HAHAHAHHAHAH how twisted.

FIRST job:
* secretary

FIRST thing you bought today:
* should have gone shopping since it’s black friday. but sun is setting at it’s already dammmmmmmmmmm cold with the sun up, so.

FIRST person you hated:
* hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

LAST concert you watched:
* DAYS AWAY *heart*

LAST book you bought:
* i bought duck cookbook for nige, does that count?

LAST thing you bought:
* hmmmmm…. i think it was a key bag on ebay… it’s so cute!!!!

LAST tv show you watched:
* tooooooooooooooo long ago

LAST movie you watched:
* hmmmm still Corspe Bride, but i gonna watch Hero again today….. MUST!

LAST time you traveled out of the country:
* i AM out of d country. but if out of this country, it would be March… Japan! nice nice!!!

LAST song listened:
* This Was All A Bad Idea - Zolof and the Rock Destroyer ^^

[1] What color is most reflective of you?
- ho! i wanna say pink coz i like pink.

[2] How did you get the idea for your profile name?
- Elaines… dunno wanna make it different and shite, dats d best i came up wid.

[3] What time were you born?
- errr… dun remember, somewhere on my birth cert.

[4] What song are you playing now, or wish you
were playing?
- no song, i’m fine actually.

[5] Has the death of a celebrity ever made you cry?
- erm…. no. no significant celebrity has died within my lifetime… Kurt Cobain did but i got to know nirvana a couple of months after his death, so.

[6] What color underwear are you wearing?
- white today and wtf is up wid dese questions?

[7] Do you want a baby?
- huh? not netime soon.

[8] What does your dad do for a living?
- erm… some finance stuff. money and running someone else’s company.

[9] What does your mom do for a living?
- takes care of d house, me dog, cooks, goes to church and bible study… OF COZ it’s NOT as simple as it sounds!

[10] What is your pet’s name?
- SUGAR! *love*

[11] What color are your bed sheets?
- no bedsheets… got into dis habit of sleeping widout bedsheets.

[12] What are the last 4 digits of your phone number?
- 7183

[13] What was the last concert you attended?
- DAYS AWAY! in baltimore! i SHOULD HAVE BEEN Saves The Day!! damn the tickets sold out but shite, shud have went anyway!

[14] Who was with you?
- Elaine Teh! She drove 7 hours to get there.. hehehehehe

[15] What was the last movie you saw?
- Corpse Bride.

[16] Who do you dislike most at this moment?
- erm… no one i guess.

[17] What food do you crave right now?
- chicken sandwich and cheeseburger… Elaine Teh! PLEASE CALL BACK!! i want dinner

[18] Did you dream last night?
- i forgot.

[19] What was the last TV show you watched?
- Man, it’s been awhile…. CNN news

[20] What is your fave piece of jewelry?
- erm… i guess it has to be the affirmation bracelet i wear… it says "play"… i lost the "believe" one which i had for THREE YEARS!! bought it when i first got here. and i lost it in a TAKING BACK SUNDAY moshpit!! shite! but actually i feel that Believe no longer applies… i really really did back then, but i guess… right now… maybe MAYBE i have moved beyond believe.

[21] What is to the left of you?
- d wall. a pillow actually.

[22] What was the last thing you ate?
- lunch… pork cooked twice. thank you boss!

[23] Who is your best friend of the opposite sex?
- dun have one.

[24] Write a song lyric that’s in your head
- but i must confess what’s in my head.

[25] Who last IMed you?
- D guy Elaine Teh likes… my student

[26] Where is your significant other right now?
- he’s significant to me but i am not to him, so..

[27] Do you have a crush?
- yeah.

[28] What is his/her name?
- Nigel. wuahahaha… wow, elaine, THAT was honest. lil too honest

[29] When was the last time you cut your hair?
- before summer semester started.

[30] Are you on any meds?
- fresh air and sunshine… been missing out on d sunshine tho.

[31] Do you have a mental disease?
- undignosed but i probably do have a wee bit of bipolar.

[32] What shirt are you wearing?
- elaine’s jacket, a blouse i bought, i mean my mom PAID for me from Jaya Jusco, and another sleeveless top i bought with norika.

[33] What time is it?
- 1:56am london time.

[34] What color is your razor?
- don’t have one…

[35] What is your fave frozen treat?
- hmmmmm.

[36] Are you sexy?
- of course not, Jessica Alba is Sexy, everything else is just wannabe.

[37] What’s your favorite store?
- no money for a favourite OOOOOOOOOOOOoo american who wrote dis survey! Favorite! not FavoUrite. ^^

[38] Are you thirsty?
- no but i am hungry.

[39] Can you imagine yourself ever getting married?
- actually, lately, yeah.

[40] Who’s someone you haven’t seen in a while and
miss?
- Nigel. wuahahahahaha. But seriously, damn i do. My dog, my mom, my dad, my grandma, my beloved cousin dez, Jarod, Matt Fred Mark Adam, Nathan Barcalow, Keith Tim Chris though i just saw them, godma and godpa, some of d myf fellas, LUIS AND MICHELLE AND EVERYONE BACK IN CALIFORNIA!!!!!!!!!, Norkia including, my host family back in CA, Eileen in CA….. *sigh* this is a shitty question.

very bright.

1) Name someone with the same birthday as you.
:: Evonne, oddly enough i know alot of ppl with birthdays the same as me or around my time… i just forgot who.

2) where was your first date?
:: hmmmm…. was over here in America… Still, i wouldn’t call it a date.

3) Have you ever seriously vandalised someone
else’s property?
:: NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!! unfortunately not!!! I should have! missed out on all the pranks in my life *sigh*

4) Have you ever hit someone of the opposite sex?
:: yeah… but i don’t think it was out of anger..

5) Have you ever sang infront of a large number of
people?
:: yeah! actually! In church! Solo summore! THANK GOD MAN!! i think it was God singing for me for Him, more likely… cause well, i AM tone deaf yo!

6) What is the first thing you notice about the
opposite or same sex?
:: aura, i guess =P… I dunno… hmm… it depends i guess, but it’s usually like their overall vibe.

7) What do you usually order from starbucks?
: caramel latte.

What is your biggest mistake?
:: erm……. is that i never let you hold me back.

9) Have you ever hurt yourself on purpose?
:: ouh hell yeah! or at least i tried or WANTED to!

10 ) Say something totally random about you.
:: i say something totally random abt me.

11) Has anyone ever said you looked like a
celebrity?
:: Yeah… Kirby said i looked like bjork… Wonder if dats a good thing or bad but i personally don’t think so :S

12) Do you still watch kiddy movies or tv shows?
:: both. kiddy movies r cool too

13) Did you have braces?
:: nope. thanks to my mom *Thank You God!* i have quite good teeth.

14) Are you comfortable with your height?
:: not really….

15) What is the most romantic thing someone of
the opposite sex has done for you?
:: they avoided me, thank you very much u @$$

16) Do you speak any other languages?
:: Yeah…

17) Have you ever been to a tanning salon?
:: Nope.

18) What magazines do you read?
:: Errr… depends on the mood no? but usually music mags.

19) Have you ridden in a limo?
:: noleh! must try that shit in LA one day before i leave!! ouh man i miss LA!

20) Has anyone you were really close with passed
away?
:: no, thankfully.

21) Do you watch mtv?
:: i like MTV2 better, has more videos. but i don’t like MTV generally. I feel that MTV is personally responsible for the moral decay of our society (especially in America) and for being the shit people who pioneer and set these effed up standards for kids that are totally totally shit and wrong. F u MTV basically.

22) What’s something that really annoys you?
:: people who are ignorant and hard headed and is not willing to change their mindset. basically ppl who suffer from myopia.

23) What’s something you really love?
:: hm. being happy.

24) Do you like michael jackson?
:: hmmm…. pitiful guy he is.

25) Can you dance?
:: zenzen dekimasen!

26) What’s the latest you have ever stayed up?
:: i think 48 - 56 hours around there is the longest i can stay up without sleep.

27) Have you ever thought that you were honestly
going to die?
:: erm, not really… unless you take into account those MILLIONS of times i got into damn lot of trouble in primary school and thought that it was the end of my world cause i’d rather die than face my mom’s wrath…….. or when i get drunk and d next day’s hangover i feel like killing myself.

28) Have you ever been rushed by an ambulance
into
the emergency room?
:: no leh… or have i? no, i dun think so, thank God.

seriously…. Nigel really is an instant cure to depression (mayyyyyyyybe cause he was d cause to begin with).

Went out for a $70 dinner yesterday. Felt so frigging crap…. It was cause of nigel of course, cause this whole week i have not heard from him at all. And i think like the card/postcards i sent to him would have arrived dis week… But he didn’t say anything. Then i know i msged him alot this week but little or no reply on his end… So i was DAMNNNNNNNN scared, there goes another guy i scared off again…. At least he didn’t ban me on MSN though, but still, i was still quite worried and REALLY depressed over it…

Coz when i msged him Wednesday, he was busy. Den, he’s not replied my email yet (d one i replied on Tuesday(he had sent me an email on Monday))… Then in addition to all that, you know elaine, who has TOTAL LACK of impulse control… When i see nigel online, i HAVE TO msg him… And i do… And i did last nite too AGAIN. I sent him an ecard yesterday i think…. then… last nite, i saw him still online at 4am (UK time) i msged him AGAIN and told him that he shud get some rest (he had mentioned before that he wasn’t sleeping well already). But of course, no reply… SO mannnnnn triple depressed. DAH i know that i shud NOT be bugging nigel so much, because i was already worried that he was feeling a little bothered by me sending so much stuff in d mail to him, then summore ecard, den email then summore NOW I STILL message him again! YET what?? I DO, i msg him again!!!

Then this afternoon, RIGHT AFTER Aida tells me "don’t msg Nigel so much anymore k?" and i said to her "k"… what do i do??? i frigging MESSEGE him!

But actually, i was just gonna say sorry to him for sending so many stuff…

So I messaged:

"hey nige! hey, i’m really sorry if ur getting alot of stuff in d mail from me these couple of days (to come). sent them at different times but i think they’re all arriving around the same time. i’m really sorry if it’s abit too much for you! Pls don’t hate me!!!"

DEN i realized dat u know… dats it lah… if he doesn’t reply this msg, i dun think i’ll ever msg him again…

Then he did reply! aand better still he said:

Nige says:
dont worry… i was actually goin say sorry aswell… 4 not replyin 2 nethin recently. Lil bit bz. Damn u have snow!!!???! I want

Elaine said, "snow on monday! SHITZ!" says:
*shoves snow to nigel*

Elaine said, "snow on monday! SHITZ!" says:
there have all u want

Elaine said, "snow on monday! SHITZ!" says:
i feel bad, coz always buggin u when ur so busy… then i get scared i annoyed u… then i get depressed… then i go eat a $70 dinner to feel betta…

Nige says:
stop worryin… i did wished u had typed a lot more last nite tho…

One word: INSTANT CURE.

Totally my heart suddenly i can feel this heavy dark cloud lift up and awayyyyyyyyy…. And i felt like, not totally STUPIDLY happy but really…. I felt happy lah… Summore he say until so nice!

NEWAYS…. hmm if my bro or like dez read dis or anything like dat and is like "waitaminute WTF????????????????" or "DA HELLLLLL???????" Hmm. yeh. hmm.. call me b4 u sez nething to nigel, please. DA HELL!