zoloft
seriously…. Nigel really is an instant cure to depression (mayyyyyyyybe cause he was d cause to begin with).
Went out for a $70 dinner yesterday. Felt so frigging crap…. It was cause of nigel of course, cause this whole week i have not heard from him at all. And i think like the card/postcards i sent to him would have arrived dis week… But he didn’t say anything. Then i know i msged him alot this week but little or no reply on his end… So i was DAMNNNNNNNN scared, there goes another guy i scared off again…. At least he didn’t ban me on MSN though, but still, i was still quite worried and REALLY depressed over it…
Coz when i msged him Wednesday, he was busy. Den, he’s not replied my email yet (d one i replied on Tuesday(he had sent me an email on Monday))… Then in addition to all that, you know elaine, who has TOTAL LACK of impulse control… When i see nigel online, i HAVE TO msg him… And i do… And i did last nite too AGAIN. I sent him an ecard yesterday i think…. then… last nite, i saw him still online at 4am (UK time) i msged him AGAIN and told him that he shud get some rest (he had mentioned before that he wasn’t sleeping well already). But of course, no reply… SO mannnnnn triple depressed. DAH i know that i shud NOT be bugging nigel so much, because i was already worried that he was feeling a little bothered by me sending so much stuff in d mail to him, then summore ecard, den email then summore NOW I STILL message him again! YET what?? I DO, i msg him again!!!
Then this afternoon, RIGHT AFTER Aida tells me "don’t msg Nigel so much anymore k?" and i said to her "k"… what do i do??? i frigging MESSEGE him!
But actually, i was just gonna say sorry to him for sending so many stuff…
So I messaged:
"hey nige! hey, i’m really sorry if ur getting alot of stuff in d mail from me these couple of days (to come). sent them at different times but i think they’re all arriving around the same time. i’m really sorry if it’s abit too much for you! Pls don’t hate me!!!"
DEN i realized dat u know… dats it lah… if he doesn’t reply this msg, i dun think i’ll ever msg him again…
Then he did reply! aand better still he said:
Nige says:
dont worry… i was actually goin say sorry aswell… 4 not replyin 2 nethin recently. Lil bit bz. Damn u have snow!!!???! I want
Elaine said, "snow on monday! SHITZ!" says:
*shoves snow to nigel*
Elaine said, "snow on monday! SHITZ!" says:
there have all u want
Elaine said, "snow on monday! SHITZ!" says:
i feel bad, coz always buggin u when ur so busy… then i get scared i annoyed u… then i get depressed… then i go eat a $70 dinner to feel betta…
Nige says:
stop worryin… i did wished u had typed a lot more last nite tho…
One word: INSTANT CURE.
Totally my heart suddenly i can feel this heavy dark cloud lift up and awayyyyyyyyy…. And i felt like, not totally STUPIDLY happy but really…. I felt happy lah… Summore he say until so nice!
NEWAYS…. hmm if my bro or like dez read dis or anything like dat and is like "waitaminute WTF????????????????" or "DA HELLLLLL???????" Hmm. yeh. hmm.. call me b4 u sez nething to nigel, please. DA HELL!
